If you made it onto this website I would just like to thank you for taking the time out of your day to look at my post and clicking on this link.

I never thought I’d see the day that my thoughts and words would manifest itself into an actual book and find itself being read by people, yet here we are.

To be honest, even though these words and the pictures you saw on Instagram are going to be your first impression on my book and I really should give this more time and attention, it’s really not that deep so I’m just going to write however I want to.

This is the first ever published book I’ve released and as I’m writing this I’m currently 17 years old and this was something I’ve taken the time to write since January of 2023 when I was 16.

School really teaches you how to hate reading and writing, but trust once you start reading and writing about things that truly interest you, you’ll realize that it’s something that anybody can get into.

Once I found the passion for writing, there were many nights before an exam when I should’ve been studying, yet I would stay up at 2-3 AM just writing this book. In étape trois alone of my sec 5, I failed six chemistry exams in a row including the final one and Mr Azouaou still somehow found it inside of his kind heart to pass me with a 60 note finale so shoutout to him. I said I hated him in a chapter of the book for some reason but hate is a strong word that I almost never use nowadays because that carries negative energy so I apologize to him.

I’ve poured so much time, energy and just love into this book that even if you read only a single phrase, chapter, only read this, read the entire thing, love it or hate it, I’ll love you for even acknowledging it.

Before you decide to click on the link that will redirect you to an audiobook/google docs of the book, I just wanted to say that your individuality is an actual superpower that you need to tap into.

Nobody can and ever will be you, which is what makes you so unique and powerful. If you were to compare me to the industry standard of what makes up a good author, I’m pretty trash, yet what makes me stand out is my experiences and my character. I’m not trying to be someone I’m not, I’m myself in this book and this is really an art form where I’ve been able to represent myself authentically.

If you know me in real life, you’ll realize that the way I write in this book and the way I am in real life to you might be a bit different, but you need to realize that Russel Pailaga is just an identity that stems from the ego. We all have an identity that we carry and show to the people we meet, and although I am myself in real life, you’ll never get to really know me unless you read something like this.

You’ll get to know me through this book because although my ego (opinion/view of self) might have a play in this, it’s really my higher self speaking to you. I can’t really place this book in a specific genre, because this is really just a journal of my thoughts, which is what makes it so beautifully imperfect. Nobody will be able to recreate something like this, because they haven’t gone through the same experiences I have.

If you’re reading this, this is your sign to start creating.

Whether it would be writing, photography, making music, painting, making content on social media like streaming or posting videos, making clothes, dancing, etc, the joy that is felt from creating something out of you is something that is priceless, unique to you and only you.

It’s really up to you if you want to care about what others think, that’s not on me, that’s on you. But creating something for the fun of it without the fear of being judged just unlocks a freedom of self that makes me so elated it’s unexplainable.

Somebody like Ecco2k is a good example. You could explain all the reasons you despise his music right in front of his face and he’ll probably say that’s fine and just smile. He sounds so free in his music. Listen and watch the Peroxide music video and you’ll get what I mean (In The Flesh is my favorite song of his if you want to listen to that too).

Okay here are the links, enjoy:

google doc: https://docs.google.com/document/d/12Ms4S3w9CYwq5Q3Pu50qAk1pUq0cV4ohsEvmUpxmnP4/edit?usp=sharing

audiobook: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehCf5VslkA4

amazon: https://a.co/d/eEND4GG